photos by Justine
There is a thing lying there… in the bed. That is not me. It was, perhaps, once me. In the future, perhaps it may be me, once more. At the current time, however, it belongs to no one, just a shape without a soul. And I suppose that I am a soul without a shape, the anchor to hold the soul down. There’s something exhilarating about being up there, but dangerous. And there’s something inexplicably wrong about being stuck here floating with you. It feels like a limbo of sorts. Some would call it heaven, but it unnerves me for no reason alone. I cannot seek comfort up here where there is nowhere to hide from the fire. It’s getting closer. Here I am, soul exposed. Take me or reject me--there is no filter to soften the blows as I crash back into that unmoving shape on the bed. I am a child of not sky but everything combined.
Sorry for the blogging hiatus. I am currently in the middle of finals/AP week. Just one more week of school... hooray! I have lots of news to share with you all very soon.
The reason why I was able to take blog photos today is because there have been bad wildfires in my area, so school was canceled. Luckily, I am far enough away from the fires, but they have destroyed several neighborhoods, one of which I used to live in. I'm very grateful to say that my family and my house is safe. To any of my readers experiencing similar situations--stay strong and calm! Remember what matters and focus on that. It's very sad to lose homes, but remember that you're worth so much more than any material thing.